Friday 24 February 2017

What to do when baby comes clingy:  Don't panic; run!

Over the last couple of weeks,  my six month old, now coming up seven months, has grown increasingly clingy. I’m pretty certain that he’s found the word ‘mama’ but it only comes during a whimpering or crying fest.  When I leave a room, he notices instantaneously and leaving him anyone, even his gran, is becoming more and more difficult.  I’m sure this is all pretty normal as he starts to understand the difference between strangers and people he knows but that doesn't make it any easier as many of you must know.

So, I have tried to make sure that I get out for a run most days when the hubby comes home from work.  Or on really motivated days, I’ve managed to get out in the mornings while baby is still sleeping.   I would love to lose weight but given that my ‘reward’ for running is usually twice the amount of cakes I would normally eat, I don't think that will happen. 

But running is about more than just losing weight. It’s half an hour, or more if I can, of time on my own. Genuinely on my own.  I’ve tried going for a bath before but I end up lying there trying to work out what to do for dinner, or what I should dress Logan in – trivial things that I can’t shut my mind off to.  When I run; however there is no thinking involved.  And also the baby is still in the house which makes it hard to switch off.  For some reason, while running all my brain is capable of thinking about is running. 

I have been a runner of sorts since the age of 21.  I’ve gone through phases of being obsessive with it to not running for months.  For the last 5 years, I struggled with running as I linked it with my battle to conceive a baby.  Was I running too much and affecting ovulation? If I didn't run, was I unable to conceive because I was unhealthy?  It was no longer about me, for me and therefore it was not enjoyable.

On my recent run, I realized that finally running has become fun again.  It’s hard – I’ve loved it but in all honesty I’m no good at it and granny’s on zimmer frames have run faster -  but  the achievement that I feel at the end of it is worth it and now it helps to set me up for the day ahead.  If baby is clingy, it’s fine. I’m his mummy and it’s my job to comfort him but I feel so much better if I’ve taken care of myself at least once.